Boring Night-Journal 9

            Thursday, November 18^th 2010! I think it’s the most boring night for me. I don’t know why, but this what I feel right now. Yet sleepy, and have nothing to do till late of night. Neither friend nor boyfriend who will be beside me, who will be my sharing friend, and who will accompany me along this silence night faithfully. Here’s the worst damn situation of mine. I stuck of a thought, and realize that I still have so many tasks as duty to do. The tasks which always judge my mind to complete them soon. I think it shouldn’t be a matter. Just let it go away. (What a forcing feeling!)

            Boring..boring..and boring. The only word and feeling in my mind. It haunts me along this night every single second, single minute and single hour. Boring because of I have no ideas to do or boring because of I don’t know what I have to do. I don’t know the answer exactly. But, it’s the only feeling of me now. That’s what I know.

            I switch on the TV. I try to find some programs which can entertain me, but I find nothing. It’s just annoying me. I keep thinking and thinking. What should I do now?

Okay! Maybe I’ll try to find my laptop. I turn it on. I’m staring in front of it now. After few minutes, I start clicking the mouse of the laptop step by step. I open notepad and I start pushing the keypad letter by letter, word by word, and sentence by sentence.

Here’s the result! A doc has been made. It’s my private doc. I don’t want someone reads this doc, because it’s just like my diary. I think it will accompany me along this night. I type about how’s my feeling now. I share with this nonliving object (laptop) and of course, I don’t forget to give this secret writing a title. “Boring Night” it’s the title.

            I share by telling the feeling of this night here. All the words come smoothly into my mind. So, it makes me to drop the ideas to this laptop easily. Now, I don’t feel too boring anymore, but I’m still in boring atmosphere though I’ve known what I’d like to do. I’d like to make this annoying feeling goes far away from my mind. Can I? Just wait and see.

Now, I’m in the middle part, or exactly almost in the last part of this writing. I get too stuck of an idea. I have to struggle with this condition I think. Just let it go away! It will disturb my concentration if I just keep thinking about it.

Uh uh.. I think, this paragraph has been in the last position of a passage, and the I answer of my previous question is I can make my annoying feeling goes far away, so that I can fully tells about my night today.